mimpi...

ape itu mimpi...(bkn impian k)

mimpi... bg kefahaman aku...

adalah mainan fikiran pabila kita di buai lena...

something... kalau kita ingat... kita boleh bercerita....

tpi tnpa bukti... kerana... ia hanya mimpi...

seperti ape yg berlaku kepada aku...

baru2 ini... laptop aku rosak... hard disk pnca...

segala2 data... kenangan... kerja... lagu2.. yg aku ada...

hilang...

bagai kan 3 tahun aku dkat kolej poly tech mara kuala lumpur ini...

hanya bagai kan mimpi...

ntah la... memang la...

kenangan baru boleh mngisi...

data baru boleh di cari...

lagu2 boleh dikumpul semula...

tapi... adakah aku perlu mulakan segala nya??

adakah ini petunjuk yg aku perlu ubah hala tuju aku...???

aku dalam jauh hati aku.... sngat syg kan kolej ini(kptm)....

tapi... aku juga benci kolej ini sbb2 tertntu...

aku mncari jalan tuk jauh kan diri...

tapi pada masa yg sama... aku masih di tarik..

aku harap...

ape pun... jalan aku pilih selepas ini....

aku takkan menyesal...

being childish..

well... last nite.. hmm..

more like last morning is not a good memory to hold...

before this i'm being critical about people being childish when watching football...

because of the important of the game..

the hype of the game... and the childish act and yet provocative friends of mine...

i'll let go my self.. in simple phrase im being stupid for a while...

before this i tried to be as rational as posible... when watching football that is..

but it hard to control my self every time anyway....

There no question that i am a MANCHESTER UNITED supporter...

through and through... whether they up or down...

and i want they to won everything..

yeah... im greedy...

but im a football fan too... i enjoy if the football is good...

even though i dont really support other team...

i still admire Torres, C. Ronaldo, Messi, Fabregas, Gerrard,

and other great name in football that dont play for Manchester United..

i really like the way Arsenal, Barcelona play....

i m just want to stress out that just enjoy the game...

it ok to be provocative... but it has a limit...

dont let a fist or a foot land on ur body because of ur 'mulut longkang'

doesnt it feel stupid to get hit because of a game of a ball that been kick around???

for the rest of my life..... i hope...

I praise Allah for sending me you my love

You found me home and sail with me

And I`m here with you

Now let me let you know

You`ve opened my heart

I was always thinking that love was wrong

But everything was changed when you came along

OOOOO

And theres a couple words I want to say

For the rest of my life

I`ll be with you

I`ll stay by your side honest and true

Till the end of my time

I`ll be loving you. loving you

For the rest of my life

Thru days and night

I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes

Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart

I feel so blessed when I think of you

And I ask Allah to bless all we do

You`re my wife and my friend and my strength

And I pray we`re together eternally

Now I find myself so strong

Everything changed when you came along

OOOO

And theres a couple word I want to say

For the rest of my life

I`ll be with you

I`ll stay by your side honest and true

Till the end of my time

I`ll be loving you. loving you

For the rest of my life

Thru days and night

I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes

Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart now that you`re here

Infront of me I strongly feel love

And I have no doubt

And I`m singing loud that I`ll love you eternally

For the rest of my life

I`ll be with you

I`ll stay by your side honest and true

Till the end of my time

I`ll be loving you.loving you

For the rest of my life

Thru days and night

I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes

Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart

by Maher Zain

hurm...

cinta... kasih.... sayang... a diff site of me...

hehehe..
walau pun aku pun masih belajar untuk memahami...
walau pun aku masih cetek pengalaman...
aku punya pendapat...

soalan...
which one you'll choose...
a smooth road with your love one...
whithout any hurricane, storm, tsunami... or just even a breeze wind coming to bother your path
or the other way around...

im sure many would prefer the 1st choice...
it is an obvious choice... only fool would choose the second option...
but i would say... i dont mind trying... yeah im a fool...
but when people said when u r in love... u do stupid stuff...

i only think... if me and my partner can survive all that...
i will cherish more our relationship...

that y... to stir things up...
i sometime... purposely.. do something bizzare...
hehe... cannot tell you guys what laa... be creative...
but... its always... would make her smile in the end...

im not saying im romantic or anything...
but sometime get into a fight also can make u closer...
but there are some relationship that start with a fight...
huhu.. like someone i know... hahaha....

so.. my friend... it not about the freedom to choose...
but it when the moment come and choose us...
we never really able to really just go n pick one out...
if it is.... falling in love... would never be hard...
in the end... r the best suitable for us... is what we really need?
sometime imperfect in someone... may just what we need...
hahaha... akhir nye majoriti dlm BI lak... huhuhu...)

i never once...
ever believe that a person can lose their feeling after wake up in one morning....
stop thinking.... it not an exam that you can study...
it an adventure... that you have to explore your self....
what....??? r you scare????

to be continue.... if i feel like it....

2010.... story so far...

29 januari 2010...

annual dinner...

tak tau la nak happy ke sedih..

well.. it a mix nite...

im quite happy with the progress i think...

tapi memang hmpir mustahil untuk dapt kan yg sempurna...

nak wat cam mana...

slack terbesar dari kami rasanye masa game tari menari...

salah aku juga dah jadi org yg memain kan lagu...

well.. rasanye org yg ade kat sana je yg faham ape maksud aku nie..

walau cam mana pun...

salah stu sbb aku sedih...

TAK DAPAT MAKAN......

geram gak... ingt dapt la mkn sedap2 kat hotel...

tapi nak wat cam ne... dah di tugas kan...

tapi rasanye bkn aku sorang je yg tak dpt enjoy mknan ari tu..

ade gak kot AJK lain yg terpaksa korbankan darpd merasa mknan ari tu...

ntah laa.. aku tak de kat situ... tak tau sape dpt mkn sape tak mkn...

but my biggest regret....

tak dapt join bdak2 nie kene kan sorang ajk...

sbb birthday die br je lepas...

tak tau laa ape nasib bdk tu...

aku balik awal sbb nak hantar someone...

well... ade sbb lain sbnarnye aku balik awal..

nak ikutkan sangup je aku spent duit lebih naik teksi dari naik bas yg di sedia kan...

untuk balik lmbat n join part mengenakan org tu...

hmm tapi dsbb smthing yg terang lagi bersuluh.... aku tak...

tak nak sntuh bab tu...

malas nak cite...

well... there are one more thing that i regret...

it should be one of my last event...

tapi... aku tak smpat amik satu gambar pun...

kamera yg aku bwak..

tak diguna lansung...

rugi...

its ok i think...

it not one think i really want to remember anyway...

satu lagi perkara berlaku...

waktu last performance..

dari male akustik... menyanyikan lagu..

lagu yg membawa bnyk erti bg aku....

aku mengalirkan air mata....

teringat kenangn2 lama...

hehe... harap abg yg sekali ngan aku kat AV room...

tak nampak la... segan kot...

hehehe....

well...

hari ini.. hari terakhir tuk bulan januari 2010...

aku pernah berkata..

tahun 2009... adalah tahun paling bermakna bg aku...

aku dapt mcm2 pengalaman...

aku alami lebih bnyak ups n down dlm tahun tu..

dari spanjang hidup aku sblm itu...

tapi untuk januari nie...

aku alami ups n down lebih bnyak tuk sebln ni dari sepnjang thn lepas...

so pikir2 la...

aku akan label tahun nie......

as the worst start for the year..

i hope it will be better...

soon enough..

selepas beberapa post yg melayan jiwa...

nak post something different...

nak cerita kehebatan otak kita...

korang semua mesti pernah bermimpi.. betul??

pernah tak korang bermimpi sedang makan sesuatu yg lazat??

dan korang actually dapat rasa... kelazatan mkanan...

mcm mana kes nie...

mimpi kene pukul...

terasa sakit nye...

tapi bila trjaga...

korang tak rasa lagi ape yg korang rasa bila bermimpi...

hmm??? tak pelik??

hehe...

semua rasa yg korang rasa tu..

hasil dari simulasi yg di hasil kan oleh otak kita...

otak kita yg mangawal semua urat sraf kita..

memboleh kan simulasi itu berlaku hampir di setiap bhagian badan kita..

termasuk jantung

sebab itu...

jika ada org yg pakar dalam psychology...

yg mampu buat kita ber imaginasi ape2 yg die nak...

die mungkin buat kita rasa sesuatu yg real...

even menghentikan jantung kita..

tetapi cam mana handal pun ianye sukar di lakukan..

jgn risau k... tapi pikir2 kan laa...

ini adalah hasil imaginasi aku..

bukan research... hahhaha....

like helll

6 day into the new year... 2010
it have been sucks!!!!!
for starter... been left alone for 2 days in empty house at the very start of the year...
feel like a mad man at that time... almost no human connection...

thank you for nothing my friends!!
found out been lied out by someone i thought as one of my bff that i could trust....
today... got my result... i fail for the first time... plus here n there... i finally crack...
i drop my tears for the first time this year... the tear of heartbroken...
the tear of disappointment.... i feel hopeless...
last year like a dream... now... any time that dream can be a nightmare.....